Saturday, May 17, 2014

The other side of consistency

It happens during every practice.  I get to the second bakasana and stall.  I shift my feet.  I experiment with the bandha.  I look forward.  I look at my feet.  I leap.  And...maybe I manage to stick one leg, but at least one foot taps down.

My teacher asked me about this.  As I told previous teachers, oh, yes, I once had it (I really did - and consistently), then I practiced when tired after traveling and at a very high altitude and crashed into my left arm and never (ok maybe once or twice) successfully landed again.  What a story!  Even worse, for the first time in a long time, I stopped to think about it. When was that trip?  Well, it was when I went to Peru, when I still worked for BU.  I left BU in the spring of 2010. The trip was in the summer.  So, it was at least in 2009.

It was at least 5 years ago (going through old photos, I've been able to confirm that it was in fact 6 years ago)!!  I've been letting this sad story get in my way for at least 5 years.  How the heck did that happen? 

I've heard great teachers say that the key to practice is consistency.  In this case, I have consistently been letting this weird little narrative interrupt my practice.

It's time to undo all that work.